I realized I have not had a chance to pen down anything in way too long a time. Can't really still come to terms with how much how life has changed in the past couple of years. The speed at which my life, my work, my entire thought process has changed leaves my dizzy, now that I have had a moment to reflect back on it.
The changes which come into our life, forced or otherwise; after a conscious decision mould us into the individuals we are. It is indeed up to us to have a control over most of our life, however there are some diversions which come along the way, steering us into a particular direction. Destiny, if you must call it. Destiny often leaves us overwhelmed, which is a natural reaction but dealing with it in the most positive manner takes conscious discipline. Now, I will not go onto say that I have mastered this, saying so would mean one has reached a state of self actuation and I am literally quite far away from that.
But what I have realized is that, no matter what happens, do not lose the sight of your ultimate goal, whatever it might be. Getting bogged down happens to the best of us, but getting back on one's feet to head "full steam ahead" is the important thing. Why I say this right now, is primarily due to the fact that I am faced with a similar situation, which is worsened due to the fact that I do not really know what precisely is wrong. Yet, there is an increasingly gnawing feeling, incessant and growing, like a miasma, spreading its roots within while outwardly there is a calm. I do not mean to sound like a melancholic soul right now, in fact quite the opposite, most of the time that is.
I started my post with the intent of writing something and ended up ranting about something else altogether. Right now would be a good opportunity to reflect back and align thoughts in a manner which would at least help define what the cause of such feelings might be. That would be a step in the direction of setting the course right... I hope..
